Today I completed the final work out of Week 2 in a six-week program. The six weeks are broken out into 3 chapters of 2 weeks each chapter, so Chapter 1 is done! I would like to say that I am kicking ass, that I completely nail the workout every day, but, if I said that, I would be lying. For the last 2 weeks, some days I wake up ready to rock and some days it is hard to find the motivation. BUT, I still wake up and get it DONE every day. Even if the work out kicks my butt, I am DOING it – and I am getting a little better as the days go on.
Since having my baby, I haven’t been happy with my body. I am incredibly proud of what my body has accomplished and I love my daughter more than the world, but I look in the mirror and cringe. I’m disappointed with the extra weight. Because of this, I have been hard on and even mean to myself. The things I say to myself I would NEVER say to my little girl. I would never want her judging herself or her body so harshly.
Given that, I have been working on retraining my brain by finding at least one good thing to say about myself and my appearance before walking away from the mirror. Some days, all I can say is that my hair looks nice or I have clear skin… but, even those little things, leave me with a more positive takeaway than having the cruel, judgmental things buzzing in my head.
A few weeks ago, I decided to stop making excuses. If I wanted to work out, I should just get up and do it. I can find time for anything important enough – I just needed to decide that working on my body was important enough.
What has happened in these last few weeks astounds even me. I have been getting up earlier, knocking out my work out (even if its hard) and starting each day with positive energy. I am more alert, happier, peppier throughout my day. I am having a way easier time picking out the positive in the mirror and, when I see something I don’t like, I am quicker to say “but I’m working on it” than I am to shame myself.
I started the program with the intent to lose some weight, but I feel like it is helping with so much more. Getting up earlier, feeling better, and having more energy has impacted other parts of my life. I am writing more, chasing other goals, eating better, getting more accomplished at work. I am doing something for me – every single day. I am working on my physical and my mental health. And, in taking care of myself, I am a better wife and a better mother. I am making time for what it most important.